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| " Until we've faced all the mistakes we've made, we'll never change."
" People don't change, alright? "
" But they CAN. They only don't because its easier not to. "
There are moments in our lives where we find ourselves at crossroads. The choices we make then will define who we are for the rest of our days, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in awhile, people push on to something better, something found just below the pain, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance, something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because its only when you're tested that you truly discover who we are, and its only when we're tested, that you discover who you can be. The person you wanna be does exist, somewhere on the otherside of hardwork, faith and belief, and beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.
I hate not being able to be apart of both worlds. I hate not being able to figure out all the solutions to my problems. I hate not being able to talk to my best friend about this.I hate everything about not being able to have the best of both lives.
To make the choice of leaving wms was one of the best and worst decisions in my life. I thought , I thought that when I leave wms, things wouldn't be the same. But it just hit me today that things aren't just not the same. Things are absolutely and extremely different. So I made a decision at a crossroad, which I can't say I regret because I've met the most amazing friends since I've been here. People like Jazmin, Chermayne, Sonia, Belinda, Guankit, Kevin, Wendy, Shaadhoon, Alvin, Bernard. And now, I cant imagine life if without them, and I know life's gotten better with such amazing friends. but then I think about my wesley friends. And how important they were to me as how important my SIS friends are to me now. And I see how we've drifted.
It wasn't supposed to be like this. We weren't supposed to drift. I knew thing's be'd different. I knew it wasn't going to be the same. But i didn't know it meant becoming like this. I DONT WANT US TO DRIFT.
Its funny how one thing that used to be the MOST important to me, is now something I miss and no longer a part of.
It really sucks to know when you're no longer a part of something that used to be so important to you. It sucks to know the friends you've told that you're gonna friends forever with no longer keep in touch with you anymore. It hurts.
And sometimes you just wonder when its going to go away...
Haha, i decided to blog in xanga cause xanga's where all my memories used to be. Probably no one would read this.and maybe thats how I want it. Or maybe, I want someone to read it, someone who'd understand, tell me the truth, someone who'd listen and tell me their honest and sincere opinion, even if its going to hurt like how it does now.
used to...
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| I HAVE MOVED!
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HAPPY LAURA BANANA? xanga was getting on my nerves anyway! the first post up will be the one about change. So yeah. =D goodbye xanga! you have been a good friend! I can't bear to delete this blog. So i'll just abandon it, and maybe one day i'll come back and read about all those times.  GO VISIT GO VISIT MY BLOGSPOT! :) | | |
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Take a look at yourself in a mirror, Who do you see looking back?
Is it the person you want to be?
Or is there someone else you were meant to be?
The person you should've been but fell short off.
Is someone telling you that you cant, or you wont?
Because you can.
Believe that love is out there, Believe that dreams come true everyday,
Because they do.
Sometimes, Happiness doesn't come from money,
From fame or power,
Sometimes,
Happiness comes from good friends and family,
And from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Believe that dreams come true everyday,
Because they do.
So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy.
Because you deserve to be. Believe that.
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And believe that dreams come true everyday,
Because… they do...
- One Tree Hill
*OH, I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEE OTH!!!!!!* :D
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| ~ Z@C ~ says:
*okok
*bubble tea house!
*buy you a mansion then fill your house with bubble tea
You think Isaac's so nice to buy me a house filled with bubble tea?
~ Z@C ~ says:
*so you can become super duper tremendous fat
*every meal bubble tea only lol
*take shower also bubble tea
think again..
SO POTONG STEAM RIGHT?
Chermayne Belinda and I were going crazy over the super cute adorable and mega good looking george sampson again today during lunch.  and no Kevin, you are not cooler than george sampson. There is no humanly possible way.
Performance night yesterday!
I personally thought that the drama was excellent. Hilarious and extremely creative! I loved Isaac, Steven, Marcus and How Han's dance. I also liked Kevin, Jon, Shankar, Jay and Paul's dance. "Hakuna Matata" :D
Yes, I took part in band.
  and because he made us wear the school uniform, we made him wear it too. :) *click to enlarge and see the magnet on his shirt, he broke the button trying to put on the shirt cause it was too tight*
HAHAHAHA MR SMAJDA !Mr smajda treated the band to a pizza party today. Thank you Mr. Smajda! For keeping ur promise and wearing the shirt, and also for the yummy pizza! hehe.  I guess today was a good day after all!
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| "We were meant to live for so much more, But we lost ourselves." Okay, I am so into the whole skyping thing. Its kinda fun actually when you get used to it. You get to see people on webcam and talk so its like the person's sitting right opposite you! (: And you also get to talk to people in a whole group, like 24 people at once. Hahah! I am pretty satisfied with myself though. I ran 2000m in 12 minutes. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be able to do it, I suprised myself AND my mom. She was so shocked when I told her. "MAAAA, I RAN 2KM IN 12 MINUTES!!!"
".... What? 2 METERS?"
"NO, TWO KILOMETERS LAH!!!!"
sigh. look at how much she expects out of me. HAHA! Tomorrow is an exhausting, exhausting day! Beep test, finish off fitness testing, finish school at 4, go to Jazmin's house to bathe and change and stuff, come back to school at 5.30 for band practice one last time, performance night from 7-10pm, by the time I come home it'll be 11, bathe and all that it'll be 11.30. STUDY FOR BUSINESS UNIT TEST ON THURSDAY, it'll be way, way way late. I am so excited about performance night, the performances are going to be awesome! (: Wingyang, Aaron and Evan are really good. I never knew Wingyang could sing like that, shocked the heck out of me. The dance club's dance is also pretty cool. In fact all the performances are really awesome. hahah! I hear I.T calling out my name! ): Good luck to all wesleyans on your exams! and Thanks alvin for helping me keep my business book! I wont call you monkey anymore!  | | |
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